Monday, August 10, 2015

Rush of Thoughts

It's 5am of morning, not the most usual time for me to write blogpost. But I'm having this weird sleep cycle these days. Almost everyday I wake up up around 4am and then I've to deal with the rush of thoughts in my brain. It runs as if last couple of hours sleep was a thought barricade and it has to finish thinking about the whole life in next couple of hours! I've no idea why this is happening, there's no jet lag since I'm in UK for more than a month now and in no way it matches with the sleeping time of any place I lived in this world.. weird (-_-) However, I'm trying to deal with it..

So, back to the rush of thoughts. Since yesterday was particularly an eventful day, my brain is just being overactive and won't stop at all. Thought it'd be better to write them down before they disappear later in morning.

My head right now :-/
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I always find it fascinating how things can be so relative. We are living the same number of hours everyday but not a single day is the same as the other one. It's the same us each day but in different versions. It must be the people around us who make all the difference. Such as, I went to Manchester last weekend where I had an unpleasant experience and I'd probably do anything do remove the wrath inside me caused by the people there. But then I had incredible 6 hours at Bath yesterday and I would probably do everything to relive those moments if I could. Would life be too boring if we could see the future and be selective by choosing only the moments we want to live and surround us only with the people we love? Or the bad moments actually increase the magnitude of good moments by being there?

Anyway, this post is to appreciate the good memories. I was reading this book yesterday - "The Examined Life". In one chapter the author mentioned how praise can cause a loss of confidence and later he elaborated on what type of praise. He said something that I've always personally believed - praise someone for their 'effort' and when they do something that's difficult to accomplish, not for anything and everything. And I feel frustrated to see how often many people simply fail to do that!

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Yesterday on my way back to Oxford I met a wonderful woman on train. She asked me which book I was reading and thus our conversation started. She was very similar to me in the way that she also left house at a very early age and was adventurous to explore life in a different country. She  was curious to know about my life story, appreciated my struggle to come so far and said my dad must be really proud of me. I didn't feel on top of the world at that moment cause I know my lacking, my limitations. But I admire those people who have the quality to encourage and elevate others by appreciating their 'effort' to improve themselves. Sometimes these simple words can change someone's mood, thought process or even life decisions. I wish all of us would learn how to appreciate goodness in the best possible way. No one is meant to be perfect in this world, we all have faults but to learn how to bring out the goodness in people and help mend the faults is probably the most precious thing to learn. May be someday I'll learn it too!

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I might have diverted a lot but I guess that's normal for my morning rush of thoughts! If my waking up at 4am continues then these random posts will probably continue as well (I'm missing iPhone's 'sigh' emoji now, too bad I can't find it here, comes handy sometimes lol). Anyway, will probably try to get some sleep now.

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